Dark hair and light eyes = dead sexy

Hello, I have been a fellow reader for months, but finally ready to post the first five of my many secrets to come. This will be hard because I have never written or talked about the secrets I will have to carry for the rest of my life. 

1. I've been in a 10 year affair with a married man. Met OM (other man) while in my first high-school relationship. Now I am married to my hs sweetheart with kids and still can't shake my addiction to OM. He is my 2nd bestfriend (husband, my 1st BF) and I care for him deeply but never want to be with him for life. It's a struggle and torture that I bear this secret till I die. I understand its all my own doing because I am selfish but its all I have known to do for the past decade. I wish there were other people living this lie I do to be able to talk to...I am sorry, to my wonderful husband, to my children and to my family. 

2. I love tanning nude in my backyard and I don't care if the one neighbor that can see into my backyard sees me. 

3. I enjoy sexting. Sending private pictures and talking dirty over text thrills me because I could never do that in person. I have only done this with OM and husband.

4. I would love to give blow jobs to clean shaved men as long as their penis is the only thing I see. Like glory holes (i think that's what its called) ... just five lined up penis' sticking out of holes.

5. I want to eat out and be eaten out by a clean amazon like (dark hair, tanned, light eye) woman.

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