Knowing is half the battle

1. I'm deathly afraid that I'm who everyone says I am.
2. I use men. Not meaning to but after a few weeks I get bored, then it's just a game. How long can I make them suffer after they say they love me.
3. I settle because I don't want to be alone.
4. I use sex to get men to notice me but then when they take me up on it, I don't respect them and will not fall in love.  Stupid, I know.
5. Any day now, I could totally drive into a median and pray that the damage sustained would be too severe for me to survive.