Two very long hours

1. When I was 16 I was told I couldn't have children.
When I turned 18 I met the man of my dreams he was 9 years
Older then me. I begged God to please give me one child
And when I was 19 he did. I told my boyfriend and he freaked out
He begged me for an abortion. I procrastinated until I was 4
Months along thinking he would change his mind...he didn't
 So I did it  because I thought I would lose him if I didnt.
I hate myself for it I wish I could go back in time and change it
I cry every night wishing I had my baby because I believe it was a gift from God and I destroyed it.

2. I was drugged and raped at 17 and got an std from it (thankfully it was cureable) I tried to tell someone they didn't believe me
I still see the Guy from time to time. He acts like nothing happened.

3. When i was 13 My "dad" told me if I flashed him he would stop beating me and let me do whatever I wanted I did it but nothing changed. I was just discusted with my self for believing it and doing it he also asked me to masterbate for him but thankfully I didn't I hate him more then anything...(even more then myself for what I did in number 1) and for the past 8 years I've been planning on how to kill him and get away with it I have the perfect plot too bad I don't know where the piece of shit is anymore....lucky him

4. Me and boyfriend from #1 are still together as much as I love him I can't forgive him for what he asked me to do. And I honestly don't think he loves me I think he just keeps me so I can keep being his maid and buying him weed and beer we have sex maybe once a month twice if I'm lucky and when we do he fucks me for like 10 min then has me suck his dick for 2 hours.

5. Most of the time I think It would be better if I were dead I just can't bring myself to do it. Sometimes I wish I could hire someone to do it for me but my job ,as great as some might think it is, doesn't pay enough.


Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: bisexual




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Beautiful mess

1) I don't remember the majority of my childhood, like 90% of it is just blank, and what I do remember mostly revolves around being severely beaten by a parent, and being raped by a neighbor when I was a young kid. He layed me over the tire of an atv and seriously hurt me. When I went home afterwards I got beaten for ruining my white t-shirt that had tire marks on it. Later, I ended up being abused by several other guys as well. As a result I acted out sexually towards others younger than me, and it makes me sick to think that I fucked them up as bad or worse than I ended up.

2) I had my first girlfriend at age 15, but was so worried about being a "gentleman" that I never fucked her even though she wanted me too, now 20 years later I can't stop being attracted to girls around that age. I never have and never would act on it, but no matter how much therapy I went to, I still wrestle with it because it would ruin me professionally and personally if anyone I know ever found out how much I would love to be with one.

3) My family has a history of mental illness. I was institutionalized for a few months as a teenager after an almost successful suicide attempt. Again, 20 years later I am now a well respected professional, and nobody would ever know how many skeletons are in my closet.

3) I love my wife deeply and don't want a divorce, however I'm obsessed with sex and can't get enough at home. My time is constantly interrupted by scheming and thinking about how I can manage to have a safe sexual encounter without risking my health, safety or freedom. I've gotten countless happy ending massages, etc. Most of the time however I usually end up masturbating to relieve the stress, and regretting the wasted time from sexual scheming afterwards.

4) If I was ever diagnosed with a terminal illness, I have seriously considered becoming a vigilante for the sake of my city. I am a very average normal looking guy, that could play the role of an unassuming victim. I fantasize about using the knowledge and skills I have obtained as an adult to absolutely declare war on the piece of shit thugs in this city. Let them think I am a victim in their midst right up until I put a bullet in their heads and burn their homes to the ground.

5) I an known amongst friends as the funny guy, the clown, and the confident & outgoing and loving friend. On the inside however, I am insecure, terrified that people will find out I'm such a mess, and jealous of anyone who has the women, money, status or leisure that I desire.
 
Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight


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I know stuff about Canadia

1. I hate how Americans don't learn about Canada and know nothing about us (Sorry no offence to the USA)

2. I just got in touch with a guy I liked 5 years ago, and just found out he liked me back then and still likes me... Only problem is I don't know what to do about him I have a boyfriend but talking to him brings back a bunch of memories. I'm stuck in a secret love triangle and nobody can help me with it...

3. I feel bad about my past and things I've done but I also don't want to change my life.

4. I'm addicted to the pain of tattoos and peircings, it's like a thrill for me.

5. I have only been able to trust one person in my life, and I loved him for being different but then he showed me that all guys are the same, and run with things get tough.... I guess you can't trust anyone but yourself eh?

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Cheater's regret

1. I have had sex with 20 guys!
2. Iv been in a serious relationship for years.
3.i had a baby by him.
4. Wen I started dating him I had already had sex with 9 people so yes I cheated alot.
Mostly with my next door naighbor.
I have fucked most of my mans friends in the past.
5.i love my man so much,and regret everything I did to hurt him.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: bisexual




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High school isn't forever

1. I have no one to talk to. Not my best friend of 11 years, boyfriend of 1 & 1/2, or even my mom. None of them know how screwed up I feel on the inside. None of them know that I have had continuous thoughts of suicide before. I'm scared to tell them for fear that they will think I'm being overdramatic, not take me seriously, and say that I am overreacting.

2. At school/work/in public I am all smiles. Always happy, always nice. even to people I don't like. But at home I am cruel to the ones I love. I have no idea why, but I wish I could stop.

3.I wish I had more friends. I am jealous of all the normal teenagers I see, out having a good time with tons of friends every weekend. Whereas I am sitting at home or hanging out with family, bestfriend, or boyfriend. It's boring and I am tired of it.

4. My boyfriend had a serious drug problem. I say that I am strong for still being with him, and putting up with, and also supporting him and helping quit. But actually I am weak and stupid for staying with him.

5. He also cheated on me. with one girl the first few eeks we started dating. He says that was the only one but awhile back I read some messages on his old Myspace account that said other wise. I never said a word.

6(EXTRA). I am 17 years old and have had sex with5 guys and sexual relations with a few others. I was only another young girl, desperate for attention and acceptance. I regret all of it more than anything in the world. My freshman year I achieved a horrible reputation. It has stuck with me, although I like to believe it is slowly fading. I am self-conscious about it, and even though it has been over 2 years, I feel like that is the only thing people see and think about when they see me walking through the halls.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Fourteen was different for me

1.lost my virginity at age 14. I regret it.
2.even tho I regreted it & said I wld nvr do it again I continued..half my choice half kinda force tht I didn't stand up to bc I broke dwn into it
3. I told my mom about the first time bc I was freaking out..ther was a lot of emotion in our talk tht day..evr since then if I say I'm late on my period she looks at me and asks if I had sex.or if I'm preg. I have lied to her evrytime she had asked.and still do. From wht she knowss we only had sex once. Wish I cld kno n beleiv tht too at the least.
4.goin on 3weeks late on period..altho I started workin out about 2months ago..so is it maybe from the chabge of weather or excersize or sumthn. Id love to beleiv tht
5.ik starving urself or makeng urself puke isn't smart but it seems as if all I'm doing is gaining weight which makes since bc its winter and my bday n vday and xxmas all in the same couple months n so a lot of ppl gain weight but I dnt wnt to be fat I hate it I dnt wnt to b this way..but I promised my bf and mom tht I wldnt go anorexic or belemic so I won't..but I'm trying to make an excuse so I have to starve myself. Or at least find a diet we're I barley eat or sumthng I just want a shortcut to get skinny.
BONOUS:I had a dream last night tht I kissed this one guy who I like and all its done is made me wanna kiss him (cheat on my bf who I have dated for a yr and a couple months who I love)
K will u Please give some feelings and advice towards what I have said, I guess I jus wanna kno what to do next with these things

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight

[1/2/3 Know that no one ever has a right to force you into sexual acts that you do not want to take part in. It's rape. It doesn't matter if you're in love. Also know that having sex with someone, especially against your will, will never make anyone love you. It may make them love having sex with you, or love sex, or love that you will have sex with them. Doing things just because other people want you to will only encourage them to use you for whatever it is you are giving them more.
4. Bite the bullet and get a pregnancy test. Not knowing will not make it go away and it it will only make it harder to figure out what to do about it if you are pregnant. And if you're going to keep having sex, protect yourself from both pregnancy and disease by learning how to use a condom correctly and using one every time.
5. Nothing worth having is easy to get. If you want to lose weight you have to learn how to eat within the caloric constraints that your body needs in order to maintain that weight or exercise enough to compensate for excess calories. Starvation will only screw up your metabolism and make losing weight even harder in the future, and the weight will come back.
Bonus: Either you still want to be with your boyfriend or not. Make up your mind and don't waste time and confuse yourself thinking about other people if you decide to stay, or staying with someone you don't really want to be with because you love them or think you love them. Sometimes love just ain't enough.
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Jumped and not in a good way

1) August 26, 2006 I was being jumped at a music venue by 60 people and accidently ran over a girl with my suv. Some guy crushed my finger right after and now I live with a plastic knuckle.

2) there's not a day that goes by that I don't feel regret for that night. I couldn't go many places without someone noticing who I was and jumping me.

3) I was depressed for about 3 years and often thought about ending my life. I felt like I was the scum of the earth and didn't deserve to live.

4) my gf at the time left me about a year after the incident.. she left me when I needed her most.

5) I sometimes wish that guy would've stabbed me with the knife he pulled on me that night when I got jumped by 3 people.. I had a broken foot at the time from a car wreck prior... fell asleep behind the wheel.

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight


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A guilty conscience does strange things

One. It's times like these where I look at my husband and wonder what would happen if I just told him the truth, I find it hard to trust him. He could tell me all he wants and I'd still be very insecure. But I hide it well and I know he's telling me the truth....most of the time.

Two. I wish I never met you. You, the co-worker of my husband. I wish we never did those things and I never loved you. I wish you would have just stayed in your dorm and stayed with your girlfriend. You would have loved it too, trust me.

Three. I see myself always in school. Being in the military life makes me think I'll never be able to get out of just doing pre-reqs. I can see it now. My husband comes home from work, I'm in my last semester and he tells me the military is moving us somewhere else. The place we're moving to doesn't accept my credits and I'm back to square one for the 3rd time. Oh well, this is what I signed up for.

Four. I wish I had my own car and a job. I think I'd be so much happier. Being a stay-at-home wife with class only every Monday and wednesday makes my life dull. But when he comes home it makes it all the better.

Five. Honestly, the only part I would want to change about my recent life is never meeting his co-worker. I love my husband so much that if anything ever happened to us, I would kill myself.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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So try to make it up to him

1) I had a mental breakdown about a year ago and during that time I accused my husband of cheating repeatedly.  I know he didn't but I was so insecure with myself at that time that I took it out on him.

2)  I've hurt my husband so bad that he has emotionally and physically distanced himself from me. I regret everything that I done to him during that time and cry almost everyday from the regret, and the way I hurt him.

3)  Im thinking the only way to solve this is to let him go so that he may be happy even if I'm not with him. I only want him to be happy and not stuck with someone who he has been hurt and let down by. Maybe his next girlfriend or wife can give him the love and happiness that I was unable to and the children he's always wanted that I couldn't give him either.

4)  ever since this incident I have felt more alone than when I was single and working and had no friends.

5)  If he did choose to leave I would not continue on in this world. I would just end my life. I would rather be miserable and feel alone and cry and be unloved in my marriage with him then not have him at all in my life. He means everything to me and I can't live without him.


Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: bisexual



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Nuthnng is good enough

-have posted b4 its kinda like my diary.
-starting to regret ever having sex. Wish I could say I was a virgin.
-I think about starving myself bc in my eyes I'm fat, but I love food too much to actually not eat or to puke it up.
-I'm a selfish bitch,its like no matter what I get or have or do nuthnng is good enough.
- I think about hurting myself to the point tht I wld hav to be in the hospital and hav a chance of dyng jus so I can see who cares enough to come see me and to feel my pain.
- the first thing I posted wasn't rele a secret so ill put another one. I'm young but I hav drank vodka,beer,etc n smoked weed,siggs, etc but I havnt for awhile bc I dnt like it I did it bc it helped releiv stress and jus to c what it was like basiclly I took my anger out on it..the thing is, even tho ik its bad and cld kill me etc..I still almost go 2 it just because I dnt wnt to hav stress or care about anythng for the couple hours I wld be intoxicated. The worst part about it is tht my mom is in A.A. great.
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Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Things as they might have been

1. I have been sleeping with the same guy for almost two years and I am secretly in love with him! He has a girlfriend and a child with this girl, but I've been there just along as her!
2. I'm still in love with my x husband even though he has moved on and remarried and has an adorable family!
3.  I secretly want my moms relationship to fail!
4. I wish my mother were the one to die instead of my father.
5. I wish I would have gave my child up for adoption.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Punctuation is for losers

1~ I find myself taking along time to get over a guy that I knew was no good for me but fell for anyways

2~ I've never kissed a guy before I want my first kiss to be special

3~ I feel so uptight with myself I think I need to let loose and experience and start being a teenager

4~ everytime I get the guy I like I push him way because I'm afraid of what people will say I care way to much about what people think of me

5~ looking back on opportunities I regret not taking the chance I had now I replay it in my head everyday and wish I would of did what made me happy instead of everyone else

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Moms shouldn't read five secrets...

1. I hate having sex. I don't like it at all but my boyfriend does and he gets mad when I say no to him so I do it anyways.
2.I hav liked my boyfrnd since I was like 7or 8yrs old when I met him. We have been dating for a yr and a half and I'm 14.he's 17
3. I feel rejected from my mom & family sumtimes.
4.I feel like skool is the only important thing in my life to care and trust about but yet I'm getting not good grades and I hate my teachers.
5.I make myself feel like shit evryday & it seems as if I cnt control blaming myself from a past regret.
I'm adding a 6th 1 just bc.
6. I feel like when I post secrets on here my mom and her frnds r reading it and know that its me. Which makes it feel like I can tell no1 anythng.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: n/a


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Who needs friends when we have Twitter

1. I have Facebook and am always on it. Due to the people connected to me, I can't always be uninhibited. I have a Twitter account so I can truly say whatever I feel. Usually It's very depressing or vulgar stuff. It's a release I cannot get anywhere else.
2. I feel like I have lived my life backwards. Big accomplishments early on. Now I'm 29 and feel like I don't know where I'm going or how to get there. Just a lost feeling.
3. I don't think I married my soul mate. I waited 10 yrs to get who I believed to be my soul mate back into.my life. I never thought it was possible so I moved on. Was I supposed to wait forever ? I think about it all the time and the "what if?"
4. If I was a guy, I'm sure I'd have kids by now. I hate the thought of being pregnant and going through hell and childbirth. It isn't worth it to me.
5. I really miss sharing things with my dad. I would do anything for him to still be alive. For that I'm a horribly selfish person. But I can't change the intense loss and the way I feel without him.

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Over the line

Boysboysboys,
let's start off by saying I'm a virgin. I don't want to be but I'm too nervous. I've heard stories about it hurting so much. I honestly just wanna lose it asap.

1. He is one of my friends since grade 7 and I have a really big crush on him. (wow I sound like a 12 year old) I have for awhile but I couldn't tell anyone. Then one day when I was drunk I told my sisters. Then I told my best friend, and I can't stop thinking about him.
2. Another boy I recently fell in love with. I work with him and I can't stop thinking of him either, I think I have a problem.
3. The other boy that was texting me and saying he wants to fuck me. That made me feel pretty because no one has ever said that to me before. Ikr what a nice way o make me feel pretty?
4. I've known this kid since junior kindergarten. And I had a thing for him in grade 6 and it got stronger recently but he stopped texting me and that killed me
5. I've also known this kid since kindergarten and I ruined our friendship when we went to far and now I can even look at him.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Pop culture life

1) Glee is my inspiration to continue acting and singing. Those are the only things that make me truly happy.
2) I regret not making my mom put me in dance classes when I was younger because now I wish I could dance.
3) "Eclipse" is my inspiration to lose weight
4) I want to marry Taylor Lautner so bad, at least go on a date. I know that sounds lame but true.
5) I cry every time I hear stories about troops over seas, I start crying and i don't know why.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Questing for a third

1) I find my girls feet so sexy. She could just pull them out and rub them on my penis and I'll go crazy.

2) my girl is a lil curious and wants to have a threesome. She has already hooked up with girls but none have agreed yet. I am def on board with this idea,.. anybody interested?

3) when I was young I used to steal. Little things of course but still. You could say I grew out of it.

4) I have posted here before, nothing crazy but still would hate if anyone found out. No matter what some secrets are better left buried.

5) a random hook up of mine told me she was pregnant. This was years ago, and I told her I wasn't ready. I'm prety sure it was a lie but I'm disappointed in myself for not taking responsibility.

Bonus: if there is anyone in the northern nj, manhattan area who might be interested in a threesome, email me at wanderingsoul1@verizon.net

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: n/a



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Born to run

1-> I'm afraid to have my heart broken so i've never dated anyone

2-> as soon as I'm happy and get the guy that I really like I find myself running away then Regretting it

3-> I hate being played it's just like heart break all over again

4-> the boy I was inlove withs bestfriend recently told me that all he wanted was sex and that was it.. But he was diffrent towards me but now he moved back to his ex ? Was it really worth falling inlove with someone like him

5-> I'm terrified to die but latley I would like too

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Wearing a lighting rod

1- I really wish i had better willpower. then i would be Anorexic and finally be skinny.
2- When i'm really horny i like to watch porn, but i always regret it later
3- Every time I hang out with one of my girl friends I always kiss/make out with her not because i like her, but because that is the only affection I get.
4- I wish I would have something mentally wrong with me or some traumatic event happen to me.
5- I feel like I'm going to be lonely for forever....and it scares me

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Unsafe sexting

One. I got caught sexting a twenty year old. (I'm fourteen). We only sent a few pictures before I went to bed. That night my mom found out my twin brother had been having Sexand decided to check on me too. She found thee pictures and turned him into the police.  Only about four of my close family know, none of my friends.

Two. I have told her many I regret it and that I don't know what I was thinking but I only really regret getting and never actually getting to have sex with him.

Three. I think I might be depressed. I pretend to be happy but it's getting harder. My parents got divorced a year ago, my brother has major anger issues, I play an average of 6 games of basketball a week, and on weekends(even weekdays since Christmas break) I can sleep around 12 to 14 hours a day. Pretty sure that's not healthy.

Four. I've only had sex with one guy and it wasn't even that great but I miss it. I'm constantly horny and wish I could find a good guy to do it with that wouldn't tell the whole school. It's very preppy and if anyone found out about the sex or about guy from number one I'd be known as the school whore.  

Five. I want to quit playing basketball. I'm a freshman on the varsity team and I do play quite a bit but it's too much. Every week I have two freshman games, two jv, and two varsity. On ocassion I have three jv and varsity. I used to love but now I hate my coach I have and I have no life. A lot if people don't realize how much you like your coach has to do with every thing.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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