Things don't get better on their own

my sis just attempted to od early this morning,she is in the hospital with my moms and Im on the verge of falling apart.I tried do be sweet and nice to her when she felt bad as well as being brutally honest,but i never got to her core and i dont understand what im supposed to do.i can never be her friend cause i know she wont let me.if i lose my only sister then i will lose myself.

my younger bro has been stealing money from me. he doesn't know that i know its him. I'll let him feed his own ego, I only hope he sees my disappointment.

Deftones have given me life when I had none. They opened my heart and mind when I wouldn't let anyone else. I have felt more empowered and secure with every song I hear. Its an ecstasy and very few ppl know this: I would fall in love with anyone if they understood the 'tones like I do.

I made myself a puppet to help out a family friend. Im a faux owner only to look pretty and say whatever they want me to say. The business is doing good and had I known that this family friend would turn into a back stabber I would have pulled the rug from under him, but that mean that not only do I go down but so does my father. That is something I can not do.

Im knee deep in some illegal shit. aside from the said secret above there is another that I have to with hold for another time. Right now tho, I could really use a hug and just be told that things will get better. the words of a stranger will echo with me forever then a friend's words. Why?

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Vun very bad thing

Im a felon mot everyone  close to ne knows this..
I just met  a girl whose dad has guns i might take one to kill myself ..
My gf of 5 years wont talk to me like she used to with sympathy
Im no longer interested in sex except with her.
she and i did things that were bizzare but we always were so open..
If she iznt willing to give us another try.
im going to do that vun thing..


Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight


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A rough three months

Since october....

1) I lost my band that was surely on its way to the top..

2) I got busted trafficing 4 ounces of weed which landed me in jail for the night.. I only selled to help put food on the table for my mom and dad.. now I have two felonies and a misdomeaner over my head.

3) the girl I was seeing at the time, I had sex with her best friend.. we weren't dating so does that make it less hurtful?

4) she never found out but she did end up playing me and went back to her obusive ex bf. Come to find out she never stopped talking to him the whole time we were together... we were together 5 months but still.. that's why she wouldn't date me.. so I don't really feel bad for sleeping with her bestfriend.. more like a fuck you.

5) I'm pretty sure I don't deserve to be loved..

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Seven is a lucky number?

1. I am a 40 year old woman who has emotionally cheated on every man that has ever loved me. My latest victim, my husband. I told him that I reconnected with an ex boyfriend and we have been talking (cheating) for about 4 months. He forgives me. He acts like nothing has happened. He is awesome.
2. I haven stolen thousands of dollars from a previous employer.
3. I have stolen money from my parents, straight from thirty accounts because they trusted me with their account information.
4. I worry everyday that my child will be a mess like me.
5. I hate myself so much. I do things to sabotage my happiness because I don't think I deserve to be happy.
6. I am a victim of incest. It happened when I was about 10 and I just remembered about 8 months ago.
7. I do not respect my mother. She had an actual affair with a married man and got pregnant with my brother. I think she is a tramp.
Whew! My therapist would be proud!

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight




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Dismantled band man

1)b I'm in love with my best friend a lot but she's dating a guy right now that is never around but she doesn't like him tho as she says  so idk what's go
in on with that? We'd make a great couple I think cuz we both like each other alot
2)e I used to be a marijuana cropper and marketeer , I would sell so much weed to so many people through out my town it wasn't even funny
3)t from being in the selling business ( which I'm not anymore) I knew a lot about people .. just about all the kids, ppl in general and in a heart beat I could have gotten all the information I needed on you to figure you out and to this day I still use my techniques
4) I feel like my life is a day by day play like a plan that repeats daily ..
I wake up, go to school, go to work, spend a lil bit hangin out and goin home to start it again the next day
5) I'm currently in a " dismantled band " .. we all broke away from each other b/c of a few ppl went to college and one we had a prob with... we have made a few songs and played a few places and everytime we played it was intense .. before we started we would always get high and rock out and what ever was on our mind we turned into muisic .. and I would do anything if we would al get back together but I don't think its gona happen anytime soon :/


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Sexual Orientation: straight


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Poor mexicans :(

1  None of my kids look like eachother and my family thinks i have several baby daddy's but there all by the same man.   Yea fuck u fam I'm not a slut!!

2. I hate cops. Their all dirty. I know to many on payroll

3. I have feelings for my best friend but he has a girl. (Ugh and that bitch irks me!!)

I love smoking weed.  But only the good stuff. One time I bought some weed from this guy that was braggin his shit was fire!! I went home and smoked it with a friend we was pissed cuz it was weak.. well my friend sells counterfeit money so we bought some weed from the guy just to fuck wit his doe. We left in a hurry cuz it look like he was going in the store to buy something. Lol fuck that day was hilarious.

4. My husband think I'm so innocent but i live a double life. I have an arrest record longer than the bible!!

5. When I buy fruit from mexicans on the corner lmao I use counterfeit money.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Screaming on the inside

1. The body of females is beautiful, especially that of the girl I want to love me...
2. My best friend makes me do stupid crazy things, I'm a level headed timid shy and nervous girl but for my lve I would do anything <3
3. I'm a teenager and want to tell my parents about my crush.... But they just wouldn't understand I've only told one person and is my lesbian English teacher.
4. I have OCD but aside from normal compulsion I often have ones involving criminal activity
5. I'm about ready to burst..... The problem is I just can't make a sound <\3

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: bisexual


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Questing for a third

1) I find my girls feet so sexy. She could just pull them out and rub them on my penis and I'll go crazy.

2) my girl is a lil curious and wants to have a threesome. She has already hooked up with girls but none have agreed yet. I am def on board with this idea,.. anybody interested?

3) when I was young I used to steal. Little things of course but still. You could say I grew out of it.

4) I have posted here before, nothing crazy but still would hate if anyone found out. No matter what some secrets are better left buried.

5) a random hook up of mine told me she was pregnant. This was years ago, and I told her I wasn't ready. I'm prety sure it was a lie but I'm disappointed in myself for not taking responsibility.

Bonus: if there is anyone in the northern nj, manhattan area who might be interested in a threesome, email me at wanderingsoul1@verizon.net

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: n/a



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World full of lies

1.I keep going into one bad relationship after another I can't seem to break free of them I know how there going to all go and yet here I am sitting alone again.
2. I am a cheater its like I see nothing wrong in it but if I get cheated on I am hurt. Tell me that's not messed up.
3. I don't have any idea of who I am only that I am a Meth dealer at 26 years old I am Very beautiful just can't find truth to my world full of lies
4.I want to feel something real
5. I want to die

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Sexual Orientation: straight



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The lucky stoner

1) I feel as if my life is a game..
everyday from wake to sleep I repeativly do the same thing as I did the day before .
2) I smoke pot every single day haha.. I'm a real fuckin stoner .. do u think being high 357/365 days of the yr qualifies me?
3) most of my friends have been arrested and put away for distribution of drugs and I barely hang out with the few REAL I have left.
4) I been arrested a few months back for underage drinking, possession. Of a unprescribed controlled medicine, Possession of marijuana ( go figure ) and disorderly conduct and out of my whole senario in cort I didn't get shit, they dropped my case b/c of my backround, grades, work life ya kno ( I'm 18) idk why they didn't give me a fine at least but in the end I was let free ha. my fuckin  boss keps tellin people I snitched someone out to get a free sentence and when I herd that I was literatly 3 feet from knockin that bitch down on her ass  .. idk were she even herd about my sentence cause I didn't tell her.
5) I haven't dated for 2 yrs now..  I have some friends with benifits and it keeps me "Real" as I like to say a "fuck a day keeps the aging away" haha although I don't feel bad about being this way cause we both get what we want ya know..

Ps .. K,this is a great site .. loads of things I had to say to get it off my chest and this does it... its like therapy really :)

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Sexual Orientation: straight



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Kinky Shrinky

1. I am a drug counselorr and therapist and am hooked on prescription pills
2. I steal from donations for the clients from the agencies I work with shelters, counseling places etc and sell things on ebay or return them
3. I am infatuated with my boss and can't stop wondering what he is like in bed and am jealous of his girlfriend
4. I slept with my boss before him-it was my first lesbian relationhip
5. My biggest fear is thatn I will end up alone and all I want is to get married and have kids

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: n/a



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The new guy sounds nice...

1. My boyfriend is in prison and I was at a concert three weeks ago. I met someone and now i've cheated on my boyfriend and now I think I really like this guy. I don't know what to do.
2. I brought pot into visit my boyfriend and gave it to him to swallow and throw up later. I also drop off donations at the salvation army containing cigarettes, chew and pot that inmates smuggle back into the prison for my boyfriend to sell.
3. I am currently studying chemical dependency and I do these stupid things for him and I love to smoke weed. I probably drink too much too.
4. I pick my nose like a bad habit! Its disgusting, but i can't help it.
5. I slept with one of my little brothers friends, and I dont know why I did it. I feel like i screwed up.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Penetration vs birthing pain = no contest

1. Secretly I want a child. I'm only sixteen. Don't get me wrong, I'm not gonna go out of my to get pregnant, but if the condom popped while I was with my boyfriend, it wouldn't be the end of the world.

2. I'm a virgin and I deeply fear penetration. Or, rather, I'm terrified of pain.

3. I'm sixteen years old and still afraid of the dark. I have to sleep with a nightlight on or I will have panic attacks.

4. I recently got arrested for shoplifting at the local K Mart. My dad thinks it was my first time ever shoplifting. I stopped counting at ten.

5. This Christmas break I'm smoking spice with my boyfriend and my just-turned 15 year old sister.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Rehab vacation

1. I am 42 and only slept with three guys intentionally. I dated all over 6 months before sleeping with them.
2. I went to rehab for a vacation because my husband is mean and nothing is ever his fault. They tried to send me home as I am not an addict. I am blamed for his finacial distruction although I did nothing. He was voice taped  cursing his employees and fired. I warned him. No one called and not one person offered him help or support finding a job. three months later, the new job paid 1/3 of his normal salary and we lost EVERYTHING!!!!!
3. I was drugged and raped by four young boys. I fell apart. I thought it was my fault for leaving three months and having a breast implant I just needed to get away. my only vacation in 13 years after raising three boys. My husband punishes me in bed when I choose to sleep next to him. He makes me do and say things that bring on VERY bad memories.
4. I take my children's adhd meds they need to pass school with and end up making our family suffer so I can stay awake and not dream about the rape.  My husband hates me and wants to kill my sisters whom I miss, but I chose to stay in a verbally abusive relationship and everyone abandoned me. I am so lonely.
5. I have stolen pills from so many houses.. everyone knows. But mostly to drug my husband's drinks so he will sleep and leave me alone. I have never done illegal drugs or meth, as all think. I starve myself and pick scabs because it's a release for the pain I feel. I am bulemic and no one knows. I got a DUI

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Karma works in mysterious ways

1. I'm in love with my best friend... We started off "talking" even had sex but now we our just friends... All I think about is marrying her
2. Last month she called me drunk and told me she thought the letter I wrote her was sweet and thoughtful... She even told me she loved me but also said none of that would matter when she sobered up
3. 9x's out of 10 when I meet a girl all I want to do is fuck... I get bored easy but I'm afarid one day I going to miss out on the girl of my dreams doing that
4. My whore-ish ways from high school have caught up with me... I'm really a sweetheart but a lot of people still think I still ain't shit...
5. I have a warrant out for my arrest in another state and I'm going to turn my self this sunday *hopefully* I'm nervous as hell

Bouns: I know she feels some type of way for me but what's really holding her back? Is this my karma for all the girls I've done wrong?

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: gay



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Oddly intriguing

1. In high school I used to steal from both random people and very good friends of mine. I also vandalized and stole from the church. I never admitted it and still feel guilty.

2. A male co-worker has developed a crush on me. As we got to know each other i developed feelings for him and was ready to start dating him. Then he revealed to me that he is married. We still text all the time and get high together at work. We want to sleep together and have an opportunity to soon, if we decide to. But if i do, i'll hate myself.

3. Tits turn me on. Sometimes enough to start a steamy masturbation session.

4. I've been fooling around with a guy 8 years younger than me who is under 18. Even though it is illegal he is damn hot.

5. At the end of high school my very best friend and i started secretly having sex. The relationship deepened before he started dating this girl who was the total opposite of me. A few months later he completely stopped speaking to me and i cried myself to sleep each night of my senior year. They are still together five years later and i still haven't talked to him. I've never talked to anyone about the pain.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Practically a criminal!

1. I am madly, head over heels in love with a girl that does not love me back in the slightest I dream of kissing her <3
2. I like girls and feminine guys
3. I'm practically a criminal
4. I've never been kissed
5. The feeling of insanity brings me bliss


Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: bisexual


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Hit and run and hit again

* I hit my boss car accidently and drove off
** I accidently backed into my step dads truck...
*** I steal things from ppl that trust me and think that I won't.
**** I don't think I'm attracted 2 my boyfriend anymore. He lost weight and I've never liked a thin guy.
***** I think I have a mental illness :-(

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Klepto confessions

One. I have a problem with stealing. Every store i go to I usually take something. Even something worth a dollar. Even if I'm buying things at that store. Idk why, and no one knows about it.

Two. I haven't had sex  in awhile, and for the first time it hasn't really bothered me. Ps; I have a boyfriend.

Three. I let her die on purpose.

Four. I am starting to care less and less about everything.

Five. I hate hypocrites, but I'm the biggest one I know.

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The kind of cocky we should all be

I am that friend that ppl dont like to call to hang cause Im not that exciting,they dont say it but i have sensed it.

there is very few friends where i can be myself and not worry about the things i do or say.I wish the world was not quick to judge on my antics and label me a loser.

this girl i really care about seems to have stopped talking to me.i guess i was to slow to act on. i have to other girls lined up but she is the one i want to pursue and have something serious.hmm mayb i can get her attention back.

Its 4am and Im listening to Adams song by blink.that song gave me the urge to come here...its a sad and powerful song.I was young when i thought of suicide,I actually had a date to do it.thing is things came up that were way worth living for.I found beauty in da simplest things which made ALL the difference.to those thinking of suicide you should listen to the song.

There is a warrant out for my arrest.

*bonus*Im not cocky or outspken but i know with focus i can achieve the thigns in life i want.girl, I will have u 1 day in my arms and I...I write too much...ill save wa i got left for another day. thank you K.

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