Devil soil

Years ago, I needed dirt to fill out my flower beds. I drove to some woods near my home, and dug up some soil and took it home. Bad idea, that soil was full of weed seed which grew/grew back like a house on fire- even when it was pulled up by the roots. Eventually I had to dig all the soil back out and burn the empty flower beds with gas to get rid of the weed. I sprinkled loads of that devil soil over my neighbour's pride and joy model flowerbeds and lawn because he is an arrogant, self-centred ass.

We had a spate of porn surfing at work which was traced back to a caretaker using computers after hours. Before he was found out, we all had to check each other's computers for porn. I checked my bosses, it was full of filth. The janitor got the blame, but I know from the date-time stamp on the cached pics it was viewed during a lunchtime and that my boss was in his office at that time. I have it in my back pocket in case I ever need it.

I think all PCs are full of dirty pics; I'm repairing my friend's pc. There are pictures of her on it posing in lingerie. I stopped looking at them when I realised what they were. I wont tell her I saw them in case she is embarassed. I like the feeling of having a secret intimate knowledge about her.

Its getting dark early now and I've taken to walking then so no one can see I'm exercising and trying to lose some weight. I carry a huge knife with me now because 4 years ago when I was doing the same thing I got beaten up and robbed by a bunch of kids. They were only 16-ish, but there was like eight of them and I just got overwhelmed when some got behind me. If a kid gang tries it again, they'll be dead or sorry or both.

I hate cyclists, they are a liability on the roads; they go too slow, take too much of the road, block you from passign them, don't stop on red lights and they don't have to pay to maintain the pavement. Give them a road to themselves and make them pay for it.

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight

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My mother the sociopath

1. I am schizophrenic but am really afraid that I'm also a sociopath. When I tell people that I care about something, it's really just a lie to get some kind of reaction out of them, be it good or bad. The only time I feel bad is when I can't feel bad at all.

2. I ruined the best 'friendship' I've ever had because I was jealous of his progress and achievements and talked badly about him behind his back. When he found out and retaliated I pretended to not know what he was talking about, but he was done giving me second chances. I don't blame him.

3. I go to Alcoholics Anonymous but mostly I go instead of Narcotics Anonymous. I don't think I'm an alcoholic and I really want to drink. I think about it a lot.

4. My ex-boyfriend was really horny one night and I just wasn't feeling it but he kept pursuing me so I just had sex with him. I told people he assaulted me so I could break up with him. I still don't know if I really think that what he did was assault or not.

5. I am starting a great business with my best friend, but he wants to be with me. I'm confused about whether or not to stay and have a successful career if it means he thinks I like him, too. He wants me to be a 'mother figure' to his kids. I want to run away.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: bisexual


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Labor Day

1. I made out with a married guy when I went to visit my sister (technically separated and his wife is the one requesting  the divorce and has a boyfriend herself) Not that really justify doing it and I never thought I would ever do something like this. I guess I can see how some of these things could happen.

2.I had a threesome this past labor day weekend. It was with two guys and it was really sexually liberating. Although even today though it feels like some kinky dream I dreamt up . It would probably be a one time experience.

3. Sometimes I feel like I am my friends' wingman. Whenever they are hanging out with a guy and their friends, I am the one they will call on. I don't mind it because I get to meet new people. That is how secret #1 and #2 occurred. However, these guys do not make for best relationships and its always this expectation of sex and I become the tease cause I don't give in easily or not at all. I want to be sexually liberated and not be judge by it.

4. I was recently let go from my job. I was so fucking pist off because i had plenty opportunities to go on interviews and possibly get paid more but I decided to stay at this job. Just for them to let me go and they definitely waited until my supervisor came back from her family emergency to do it. Fucking bitches but I guess things happen for a reason and know that God probably has other intentions for me. Sometimes I think this was God way of telling me that he dropped signs and I did not pay any attention to them.

5. I am my mother's age when she had me but I feel so unaccomplished. Even though I gotten my masters and do want to pursue my PhD eventually. I still feel like I should be doing more with my life. I am waiting for the altering life changing experience where I feel like ...I don't know maybe that's what I am trying to figure out what I am suppose to feel. Maybe to feel like more of an adult.

PS- I wasn't sure if I wanted to post my secrets on this. Call it being paranoid but I feel like I am going to be linked somehow to my secrets. Although, it does feel good typing it up hopefully I have the guts to send it.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Education isn't everything

1. I have a perfect amazing body and am tiny. The truth is I am addicted to Adderral and never eat...
2. I have a gorgeous, sexy, successful,funny and charming boyfriend. Everyone thinks we are the perfect couple from all outer appearances. The truth is as beautiful as I am he sleeps with strippers, escorts and basically any random female who feeds his ego. I know this for a fact and won't leave him. The worst part is he is the one man I would have bet my life would never cheat. I don't know why I am putting up with it because it's destroying me.
3. I have had 3 abortions and think every truly bad thing that happens in my life is because I deserve it as karmic payback.
4. Everyone thinks I am this dynamic, successful, beautiful, strong, fiercely independant woman who is always in control. Truth is I have never trusted anyone enough to show my weaknesses or be my authentic self, faults and all because I don't think they would still like me.
5. I did not graduate from highschool. No one knows this. I am very successful in my career and earn over $100,000 a year. I am very intelligent and most people assume I have a college degree. This is probably the thing I feel most embarrassed and ashamed about.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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I need some of those pills

1) I'm going to do my own business and do investments and every one in my family talks down on my dreams because they r so boring and safe. Only the select FEW (as in 2 or 3) believe in me and those r the only ones is help or take with me on lavish vacations and the rest of my family can suck it and wish they believed in me at first

2) I pick my nose and stick them under counters, chairs, couches etc if I have no tissue.

3)  all my ex best friend did was complain I like to b happy so I'm glad we grew apart. I felt like I had a nagging wife sometimes. Complain this and complain that...ugh

4) I need to be more athletic, there r so many sex moves I wanna try....but sometimes its just too much work lol.

5) when I lose weight people compliment and ask what I'm doing. Although I don't really lie, in this case I brag about exercise and eating right and what they should do....when really I take diet pills. Hahahaha

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Looking for a happy ending

1--- I hate my life and pretty much everything about it now because the girl I loved broke up with me first thing on New Years. Literally around 12:30am New Years day.

2--- I am a grown ass man and i still live with my mom, every time I get out of here something happens and I end up having to come back. I love my family but I HATE living here!!

3--- I hate my job, the people are all so very cool and I like them all but the actual place and work are the pits!!

4--- I have almost completely lost my faith in God because I refuse to believe in a God that lets a person get to know, and fall in love with someone for almost a year, fly halfway around the world to meet them, then break up with them. (See the first secret)

5--- I'm planning to ask a woman that works in an Asian massage parlor if she will consider getting to know each other and maybe be my girl.

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Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Big changes are coming

1I'm ready to leave my wife.
2I'm ready to quit my job were I've worked so hard to get to the position I'm in.
3I'm stressed but hide it very well. I'm exhausted and can't sleep. Depression is starting to get the best of me. I'm trying hard not to crack.
4I feel like I've let myself down by not thinking about certain life changing decisions before diciding on them.
5The only thing that makes me happy is the girl I've been talking to. She understands and knows how to treat a guy. My wife doesn't. Its been a rough few years for us and I think we'd both be happier with someone else. I haven't been the best husband either. My job keeps me traveling a lot and I'm in a different city every week. And the obvious... I'm cheating.  I just want us to be happy.

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Sexual Orientation: straight


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Everybody's working for the weekend

-It's sad but my highlight of every week is getting trashed on Friday nights and sometimes Saturdays also. That's all I look forward to these days. I wish I could be drunk all the time, but I'm responsible and only drink when I don't work.

-I've been at the same job since I graduated highschool about 4 years ago. I use to love it. I was so passionate, but now I never want to get up out of bed and go to work anymore. I'd rather stay home. Some bitches decided to gain up on me and plot against me. They tryed to get me in trouble. They didn't succeed but it really hurt my feelings. I was nothing but nice to them. I don't know what they're problem was. They try to be my friend now, not going to happen, I'm not stupid. I feel so unappreciated there. I work with mentally disabled teenagers/adults with behavioral problems at a school. I get beat up all day long and work hands on with them and yet the administration sit up in their offices all safe and unharmed and they get paid way more. The same people always get awarded or noticed because they kiss ass. They're are tons of people that work just as hard, if not harder. Recgonize them for once. It's not that hard.

-I seriously have like 2 friends. I just can't seem to keep people around. I'm a nice person. I just don't get it.

- I want to be in a relationship so bad, but I guess I don't know how to get one. I suppose I'm picky. I mean, I have a steady job, and my own place so is it too much to ask that the dude atleast have a job? I don't know. Guys act instrested in me. Tell me they like me.. hangout with me n than one day just stop talking to me and ignore me. Do I get that boring? I'm really nice.. I just don't get it. I really want someone to love me.

-I had a dream about him lastnight. I don't know where it came from. I always think I'm over him but than I have dreams about him or get drunk and start asking for him. Why?

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Dismantled band man

1)b I'm in love with my best friend a lot but she's dating a guy right now that is never around but she doesn't like him tho as she says  so idk what's go
in on with that? We'd make a great couple I think cuz we both like each other alot
2)e I used to be a marijuana cropper and marketeer , I would sell so much weed to so many people through out my town it wasn't even funny
3)t from being in the selling business ( which I'm not anymore) I knew a lot about people .. just about all the kids, ppl in general and in a heart beat I could have gotten all the information I needed on you to figure you out and to this day I still use my techniques
4) I feel like my life is a day by day play like a plan that repeats daily ..
I wake up, go to school, go to work, spend a lil bit hangin out and goin home to start it again the next day
5) I'm currently in a " dismantled band " .. we all broke away from each other b/c of a few ppl went to college and one we had a prob with... we have made a few songs and played a few places and everytime we played it was intense .. before we started we would always get high and rock out and what ever was on our mind we turned into muisic .. and I would do anything if we would al get back together but I don't think its gona happen anytime soon :/


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Sexual Orientation: straight


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If you like her, who cares?

1. So I'm about to start dating this girl..that I'm afraid to be seeen with in public... she isn't
That bad looking..I just know my friends are gonna be like WTF?

2. I just thought about acting like I'm insane or something...but I don't think getting sent away or something will help my real problems...

3. I hate my job...my big bosses talk about teamwork and fainess..and etc...but they really don't give a fuck.
They stress about $$$$...but have enough money to take company trips.

4.I'm a lesbian...I've known since 6th grade but I've been...having little crushes on white boys.

5. I've posted here before this last one is like an update* so I've been talking to my FWB for about 6 months now..and I fell for her hard...but she isn't ready for a
Relationship...and it kills me because I would do anything to have one chance with her...

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: gay



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Seems wrong to skeet after mom

Well shit...this isn't a secret but fuckin'a ppl have some fucked up lives that post here, its sad...and somewhat rewarding to know that I could have it a lot worse...
S-I used to be best friends, soul mates even (no homo) with my cousin but over the years...after college and entering the extremely fucked real world, we kinda lost touch. He moved to colorado and I missed his going away shibang and I feel like an ass. I miss him. (Again no homo, I'm a dude)
K-I've met my dad once in my life...he's a twat. The fucker had sever depression(just found that one out, only took 26 years) his depression really put the last couple years of me feeling like a worthless turd into perspective.
E-I fuckin hate my job. I wish I could change it.
E-I've been with my lady for the past two years and some change...I havnt really ever showed her how much I love her because I'm a dick...but fuckin'a man, I do love her so much
T-My mother is the most important human in my life, she has given me so much and ill never ever be able to repay her. She's a saint...even if she is a superconservative right wing looney bin I would die or kill for her. (Skeet skeet)


Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight



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You could say you did anyway

1. I think I'm addicted to sex, I always want to have sex, and I use guys for sex.
2. I hate my job, I wish my boss would kill himself because he is such a idck head.
3. I had sex with my son's father's friend, just because he's his friend, and it wasn't good.
4. I want to have sex with a celeb, just so I cansay I did.
5. I wish I could have a sugar daddy just not an old one, I'm lazy and I want some one to take care of me.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Might switch to non-perishables...

1. I obsess that I'm not really human because I  don't have a concious.
2. I hoard food in my car because I'm afraid of starving, and I blame my kids for the foul smell.
3.I sleep at work.
4.I always lie, because nobody believes the truth.
5.Im terified of cats

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: other



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Women, they love 'em too

1. I was sleeping with the gm at my work. It started before i started working and continued until we had a falling out.

2. My manager and i had sex not only outside of work but at work as well.

3. I stumbled upon very very graphic pictures of my best friend on her computer in the recycle bin. I never mentioned to anyone but still wonder who they were to.

4. i secertly wish this girl i know and am friends with (just not as good friends anymore would get knocked up or something. She is such a slut and thinkss she is gods gift to men.

5. I am not a lesbiasn but have a fascination with strippers. They are exciting and fun so i enjoy going to strip clubs.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation:straight



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Always make room for ice cream cake

1 I would like to put some positive things on here. I tell people I can't stand pan handlers but if I am by myself in my car I will give them money or ciggs because I know what its like to be homeless and broke and with out hope.

2 I am very happy and thankfull because I just got a job making more money than I ever thought I would be making at my age. I'm 22 and I'm going to make 200k a year overseas.

3 I'm finally going to be able to buy my family xmas presents and have my own place. It makes me happy to give to others. I feel if you put good out good will come to you.

4 I feel pretty optimistic about getting back togeather with the woman I love. Not that I'm going to use my money to sway her but she will at least know I pulled my self out of homelessness and achieved a lot. She didn't do anything wrong on her part I was abit insecure and I realize that I had to grow up a bit and make better decisions. I am not the same person I was last year or even two years ago, I actually feel like a man now.

5. I love trolling people, I know it sounds immature but if I'm a little sad I will prank gamestop or church or scientology or anyone just for a laugh. I don't get personal its all in good fun. One time my friend called a starbucks and acted as if he was from corporate and got them to throw milk out to make room for ice creame cake. I did it for the lulz.

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Sexual Orientation: straight



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Fear of regret is a lousy reason to stay

1) I love my girlfriend and have been with her for almost four years but I have cheated on her so many times. I have had sex with 7 girls since I've been with her and made out with over 25.

2) Every once in a while she will hear about something I've done or someone will tell her I've cheated on her but there is never enough proof for her to leave me. These little leaks have caused so much damage to our relationship that I dont know if we'll ever be able to be happy. My mind tells me that our relationship is damaged beyond repair but my heart won't let me leave her and she wont leave me either.

3) She doesn't trust me at all and I believe that you cant have a relationship without trust. So Im stuck in an un comfortable place I dont even want to be in a relationship because Im addicted to sex and dont want to be with just one girl. I like being able to go out whenever I want and live my life the way I want to. I dont want to be tied down. Im too young (20). A part of me tells me to leave her because Im only hurting her and I can never be faithful but the other half of me knows I'll regret letting her go and it wouldnt be worth it. So I dont know what to do..

4) She let her friend move in with us because her friend got kicked out of her mom's house. Her friend has a baby. So without asking me she just moved a girl (that I cant stand) and her baby into my house. It pisses me of to walk into my living room and see baby toys and bottles and shit all over the place.

5) I made a mistake at work that really fucked up my relationship with my bosses and may eventually lead to me being demoted or losing my job..

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight



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The cupboards are bare

1. The guy I cheated on my husband with is my best friend. Unfortunately, I don't even want to look at his face anymore. I hate what I did with him and I regret that I did it all because of a fight I had with my husband. But I can't stop being his best friend. He's just apart of my life like that.

2. My husband has been getting alot more stubborn and testy lately and honestly I think its because he's realizing he can't live like he use to. Money wise. I think he's finding it hard that he has to support two people now. I've asked him but he said he knows what he got into. We're just having a hard time right now but seriously? He restricted me from going to the store to put food in our house.

3. My husband has never made me orgasm. Ever. I orgasmed once when he was fucking me but I had a vibrater on my clit. I really want to orgasm without self-doing.

4. I'm losing intrest in my career choice. The most of my family is in this career so I feel obligated to do it. I honestly want more in my life than this but I don't know what yet.

5. My husband and best friend are both next to me right now.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Don't wait for change, create it

*I can't stand my husband. He's an alcoholic and disrespects me in every way possible but I always think things might change.
*I'm super depressed and cry over EVERYTHING. I've been to the Dr. But don't want to take the medication because it causes weight gain and I'm already overweight.
*I can sleep 14 hours a night and still feel tired.
*I'm unemployed right now and feel like a failure and useless.
*I cheated on my husband several times but don't feel bad cuz he treats me like shit.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Glad you're feeling a little better

1. I sent 5 secrets in before when I was at my lowest. emotionally. and like a week later I got a message from K. And it really made me drop a few tears but it made me happy and a lot stronger. So thank you K. For that email.

2. Everyone thinks I'm doing so good now because I have a great job. and everyones so proud of me. but I feel like I  still don't have shit. I want more and I'm going to get more. I promise that.

3. I wish I was fucking more females. I'm talking like a diffrent female a week. Or at least about 3 fine females that I can fuck whenever I want.

4. I'm a chubby chaser. but that's because the skinny females run from the dick because they can't take it all. when the bigger girls can take it all and are easier to fuck with NSA.

5.I'm so emotionally attached to my ex girlfirend and I wish I wasn't. As much as I wish we could just be friends I don't know if that could happen with us. I still love her too much. But I think I'm starting to get over her.

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Sexual Orientation: straight



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Hello nurse

1) I really miss my mom. I wish she didn't leave me and my siblings with my grandparent's when we were little. I mean I understand she's a Singer and her work is in another state all the time. . I barely get to see her. . I used to have the biggest grudge on her, but for some reason whenever she gets a chance to see us I just wanna hug her and let her know that I love her so much. I sure hope she does know that.

2) I failed my nclex for nursing twice and I'm about to take it again next week. . I feel like I disappoint my aunt cuz she's the one that supports me the most with this. . Hopefully, I pass this time. As they say, third times the charm right? Hahaha!

3) It's almost been a year since me and my exgf broke up, but I still miss her a lot.

4) I can't wear plain white socks hahaahh! It just bothers me.

5) I think I might be having a crush on you "K". (: do you wanna get a cup of coffee? Or maybe go to Disneyland? (: hope you have a fantabulous day!

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: other

[I am having a fantabulous day. Thanks for being so sweet, but my new boyfriend is already missing me by now, I can't tack Disney onto the end of this vacation!
K]


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