Things don't get better on their own

my sis just attempted to od early this morning,she is in the hospital with my moms and Im on the verge of falling apart.I tried do be sweet and nice to her when she felt bad as well as being brutally honest,but i never got to her core and i dont understand what im supposed to do.i can never be her friend cause i know she wont let me.if i lose my only sister then i will lose myself.

my younger bro has been stealing money from me. he doesn't know that i know its him. I'll let him feed his own ego, I only hope he sees my disappointment.

Deftones have given me life when I had none. They opened my heart and mind when I wouldn't let anyone else. I have felt more empowered and secure with every song I hear. Its an ecstasy and very few ppl know this: I would fall in love with anyone if they understood the 'tones like I do.

I made myself a puppet to help out a family friend. Im a faux owner only to look pretty and say whatever they want me to say. The business is doing good and had I known that this family friend would turn into a back stabber I would have pulled the rug from under him, but that mean that not only do I go down but so does my father. That is something I can not do.

Im knee deep in some illegal shit. aside from the said secret above there is another that I have to with hold for another time. Right now tho, I could really use a hug and just be told that things will get better. the words of a stranger will echo with me forever then a friend's words. Why?

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Camping conundrum

One. I finally have gooten a boyfriend I'm totally myself with. I can act so goofy and he stills likes me. I'm so lucky.

Two. I wish I could tell him everything about my sexual past. He thinks I'm a virgin. I'm not. He Aldo has no idea of the guy I got put in jail for exchanging dirty pictures with when I was still fourteen and he was twenty.

Three. I want to be his first but I don't know how to tell him without sounding like a whore. (we've only been together about a month and a half)

Four. He, his brother, and he girl cousin are going camping. This shouldn't be a big deal
except his brothers gf and cousins bf are going. When his brother asked why I wasn't going he freaked saying no multiple and just looking at me and saying sorry but you're not going. It wouldn't have been that big of deal but how he reacted has made me suspicious.

Five. My dad cheated on and left my mom and I'm terrified that's going to effect my future relationships and I won't ever act on suspicion for fear it's onlynin my head.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Understandable

1. I absolutly hate people who are cheaters. How can you feel okay about treating someone with no respect. Cheaters just disgust me.

22. I've found the man I'm going to be with forever, and I'm finally truly happy because I know he'll never hurt me.

333. I'm scared that I can't make it thorugh college, I can be smart, but it's just a lot to handle. It would be easier if I didn't have a full time job working with customers who bitch and complain about everything.

4444. I was molested when I was younger and it has caused no harm to the person I am today. I'm just glad the person who did it is dead, isn't that understandable?

55555. I'm scared if people who are fatter than me. I find it hard to hug them and look at them, but they don't notice. Oddly, my mother, is atuakky very big, and I have no issues when it comes to her.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Hell yeah G UP!

I LOOOVE HALUCINATING WOO

I LOOVE PUSSY

Life is HAARD I thought about giving up But then I wad like WTF imma dumbass Fuck dat time to G UP

I smoke weed all day for like 10yearsits AWESOME! !

Im probably tooo HORNY LOL

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight



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I'm a girl too...

First; For the first time in a long time, i feel decent.

Two; I'm a fuck up. Even my parents say so behind my back.

Three; My parent's think my boyfriend is too old for me, & When they think im not listening they talk hella shit, but in front of me, they lie.  fuuck those two faced fgts.

Four; I've bettered myself, since my boyfrieend<3 came along, I used to be the bigggest attention whore ever, party, smoked, dranked, drugs, etc. i had to cut that shhit pretty quiick when my family started seeing shhit, and My boyfriend, .. id prolly cheat.

Five; i love the feeling of being sexy and proud. it causes the biggest smile on my fuckin face.

Bonus; I hate girls, there all fake, two faced, whores now of days. I'm a girl but the complete opposite, im honest, real, and far from a whore, they all take there bf's for granted too ,getting pissed at them for the smallest things, like seriously? grow up or dont be in a relationship.

Oh yeah, I always wonder if i know anyone who post's on here. lol js.
:)
I love yu k. this is truly a great site. nd venter :)

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: bisexual





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Weight watchers works

1. I've lost six pounds- it's only a secret bc I don't want my friends to know I'm on weight watcher
2. I let people walk all over me
3. I wish people could see me as I am....not as who I was
4. I'm amazingly happy at getting a lead role in our schools "one act", but in an effort nor to sound vein I just shrug it off
5. If my dog was a human being I would marry her

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: other



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Soon to be best seller

1. I'm trying to be a writer, and I'm at a part in the story where the character sees a dead body.  So all day before writing again I've been imagining what everybody would look like dead, in a wierd fucked up kind of way people are more beautiful dead.

2. When people ask me what I want to write I say novels.  But I really want to write comic books, I just don't want them thinking I'm too stupid to write "real" stories.

3. I hate it when people say that Avatar is either the greatest movie of all time or the worst movies of all time.  The movie sucked and it was over rated but saying it is either the greatest or worst film of all time is extremely stupid.  It's extremists like that that are ruining this country.

4. I hate Glenn Beck, o.k. so thats not a secret but he is a fucking idiot.

5. Even if the book I'm writing doesn't get published, I'm still happy that I finished an entire book.  Even if it kind of sucks.


Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: n/a



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Scary symptoms

1. I've been well happy for the past few days
It seems like nothing is going wrong :)
2. I have OCD whenever i turn on a tap i have to flick my hand under it twice before i can use the water
3. I cannot stand bad grammar and spelling.
4. I feel i am better not talking to my mum even though at times it hurts.
5. I've been throwing up blood every now and then and i dont want to go to the doctors

P.s. I really feel like dancing ;D

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Ultimate possession

1) I'm deeply in love with my gf and she's the world to me

2) i m in a weird situation.. my gf is bi but I'm strait and I don't like the fact
She could be messin around wit a girl even though were dating, I still feel that's like
Cheating ??? K, what should I do?
3) according to my gf at 26 were havin a kid .. in the worst way she said she wants one.. I think that's still to young to have a kid but idk.
4) I'm 18 and I use to play girls like a fiddle but the one I'm with ow makes me feel way different.. like she makes me feel better everytime I see her beautiful face
5)I feel as if my life is going " so far. So good". I got just about what every teen boy needs or wants and on top of all the material posessions none beat the ultimate posession of havin a wonderful girlfriend like the mine, who one day. I wish to marry :)

Ps : k, what should I do about my situation, I turn to ask you this question hoping you'd kno the answer .. since your good at these things

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight

[Reading this, I can't help but wonder if you have any reason to believe your girlfriend is/has/would cheat on you, other than the fact of her sexual orientation. There is a prevalent misperception that bisexuality and promiscuity go hand in hand, and that's not necessarily the case. Yes, it is common for men who date bisexual women to be unconcerned about dalliances with other women while maintaining more conventional standards about having sex with other men. However, a woman who is not ordinarily prone to cheating isn't any more likely to do so just because she's bisexual. I'd suggest that you talk to your girlfriend about your worries and see if there is really anything for you to worry about -- it could be that she is completely satisfied being with only you. If she's not and does actually feel that she should be able to do as she likes, you've got a decision to make. You either decide that you can't accept her sleeping with women on the side or decide to find a way to be okay with it. Either way you go, be honest with her about it and accept whatever consequences may come.

Another thing you might want to take into consideration is that often bisexual people tend to prefer one or the other sex and mostly experiment with the other without much emotional attachment. That and the distinct possibility of a three-way are probably the main reasons why so many guys don't mind their bi girlfriends messing around with other girls. Good luck!

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Diamond girl

1. I've been dating my bf for two years, and I love him. But I'm cheating on him with my best friend.
2. My best friend and I are amazing together. We go out all the time and we smoke and drink. Sometimes we have sex, and its always AWESOME. He makes me feel like I'm alive. Like it doesn't matter what I think or do. He makes me happy.
3. My best friend is all I think about. We've talked about it extensively, and we know that we love each other, but he says he doesn't want to ruin it all by dating. He's under the impression that if we start dating we'll break up shortly thereafter and he will lose me. And truth be told, I don't mind.
4. I've started talking to yet another guy. He's a really cute tattoo artist at the premier tattoo shop in Miami (where I live). He's a sweet guy. He doesn't want to push things because he knows I have a boyfriend. He has no idea I'm sleeping with my best friend. But my best friend knows all about him.
5. I think the reason I'm being unfaithful is because my boyfriend just isn't attracted to me. He's always telling me how I should lose weight or stop getting tattoos or piercings (I don't even have that many). And I'm not interested in changing or stopping. I can tell he's not satisfied anymore, and that used to make me feel depressed. But now, I've just found two guys that make me feel like a diamond. I'm happier this way.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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Squee

I hate having sex with my husband, have had a man on side for over yr. Sex is phenomenal.

I just experienced an orgasm for first time ever with other man. I am ee.

I'm planning on divorce

My man is in army and will be leaving soon.  I wish I cld have a baby with him.  We r both fixed.

He makes me think about sex all day long.  I've never been one to masturbate, but I might have to now he is leaving.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight




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Always make room for ice cream cake

1 I would like to put some positive things on here. I tell people I can't stand pan handlers but if I am by myself in my car I will give them money or ciggs because I know what its like to be homeless and broke and with out hope.

2 I am very happy and thankfull because I just got a job making more money than I ever thought I would be making at my age. I'm 22 and I'm going to make 200k a year overseas.

3 I'm finally going to be able to buy my family xmas presents and have my own place. It makes me happy to give to others. I feel if you put good out good will come to you.

4 I feel pretty optimistic about getting back togeather with the woman I love. Not that I'm going to use my money to sway her but she will at least know I pulled my self out of homelessness and achieved a lot. She didn't do anything wrong on her part I was abit insecure and I realize that I had to grow up a bit and make better decisions. I am not the same person I was last year or even two years ago, I actually feel like a man now.

5. I love trolling people, I know it sounds immature but if I'm a little sad I will prank gamestop or church or scientology or anyone just for a laugh. I don't get personal its all in good fun. One time my friend called a starbucks and acted as if he was from corporate and got them to throw milk out to make room for ice creame cake. I did it for the lulz.

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Sounds like you should believe him to me...

1. I'm more in love with one of my best friends. He knows that I like him, but I don't think he understands how crazy I am about him. He's nothing I look for in a guy, but for some reason I can't help how I feel about him.

2. Recently, we both had a few drinks, and ended up staying up most of the night talking and cuddling, and I've never been happier in my entire life. I told him how much I enjoyed it, and he said he enjoyed it a lot also, and that we should do it more often.

3. I also asked him throughout the night if he would ever consider messing around with me, and he said yes. Which was not what I had expected at all.

4. Now I'm scared that the only reason any of this was said or done was because of the alcohol, I mentioned it to him, and he said he really did enjoy the night, and that he was fine with it. But I just don't know if I can believe him.

5. Now, everytime he brings up a girl he's talking to, or an exgirlfriend, I get extremely jealous. I want to tell him how much I actually care, but I don't want to push him away.

Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: gay



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Cursed

1) I was raised knowing that witchcraft
is very real, but I do believe in God.
I recently found out someone has cursed me.
I can also see how I am.

2) I almost killed myself before christmas,
but my friend called me before I did. She doesn't
know she saved my life.

3) Im in love with a jackass, and 3 years later
i still dont know how to let go.

4) My brother is abusive, he hates me with a passion.
I havent done anything wrong. He has hit me, made me cry,
 emotionally abuses me...but the day he dies, id still cry at his funeral. He is my only sibling, and even if he hates me I love him.

5) I steal food to survive. Our jobs put together doesn't
always make ends meet. I do what I can to make my mom happy, but she still favors my brother sometimes.


Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Sometimes a new girlfriend makes all the difference

#1 my best friend hates me right now she won't even acknowledge my existence
#2 new years was possibly the best day I could have had
#3 my new girlfriend is the reason for 1 and 2 and I'm happy she saved me from making a bad choice.
#4 my ex keeps tryin to get back with me....even though she broke up with me because I couldn't keep her interest.
#5 I think I may have finally changed. Put all the bad stuff behind me and am starting to live life for all I can

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Sexual Orientation: straight



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Have no fear, happiness is here

1. I Am the post (secretly sad) I'm now alot happier I have excepted this wonderful man as a blessing and he has stood beside me seeing through me.
2. He Does not know about the suicide attempts but he can see when I'm trying to avoid showing my true sadness and he tells me to be myself he's here for me
3. I Love him but can not tell him. I Think it will ruin everything but I think he knows.
4. I have stopped smoking and only drink wine sometimes.which Has made me gain weight but he kisses my fast rolls and pretend not to notice my weight gain
5. My only sadness now is my fear that some.day This will end. Because I'm not suppose to be this happy

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Nothing worth having is easy to get

"Hippie talk is nice" made me cry. Thank you.

I have an addiction to pain killers.

I re-injured my arm that was surgically repaired and no one knows. Now I need them more than ever.

My mom doesn't even know that I'm taking hydrocodone. Sometimes I buy it from a kid I know from school. A few times I've done some things that I'm not so proud of. I'm a fucking junkie. Giving pleasure to someone else to relieve my pain. How fucked up is that?! I'm crying again. FUCK!

All I do in my spare time is drink, smoke and masturbate. I feel like I have no value and make no contribution to society. I want to do something with my life, but feel like I can't because of my addictions. Dr. C****** is helping me but its hard.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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Hurt is not what you want to feel

1) Even thinking of him makes me happy, even though we're barly frineds, I am desperatly in love with him
2) I always feel lonely even when I'm with other people and I don't understand it
3) I like attention, but at the same time I hate it
4) I have ADD and its so hard, I hate having to cope with it, and sometimes I with that and OD on my meds could kill me, but it can't.
5) I used to cut, I promised I'd stop, but I want to again, to know that I actually have feelings

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Sexual Orientation: straight



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Hippie talk is nice

I haven't written in a while, but its 3:20am and I have a lot on my mind. Where better to go than here?

5) I wish I had never been diagnosed as bipolar. Since then its been nothing but "Did you take your pill?" And self-help books for Christmas. Don't get me wrong, finally learning what it is I'm battling was liberating. I just wish I had been the only person to know.

4) Smoking pot does more for me than any pill. It puts an insomniac to bed, calms the bipolar moods, and encourages a disinterested girl to eat. Plus, I know exactly what's in it. I cannot say the same for my prescribed medication.

3) I simultaneously feel like an infant and an old soul. I'm just now becoming aware of the world around me, smells and sights and sounds are more meaningful. Its hard to describe, but I feel like I'm somehow catching up on something fundamental that I missed. However, part of me feels so much older than I am. That was already a secret from long ago, though. So I shall skip that half(:

2) I'm terrified because I'm happy. I keep letting old wounds distract me from current bliss. This affects me more than I let on, but I suppose some things are better left secrets (at least when it comes to the people involved.) However, here in this open arena I can honestly say that it kills me to put so much trust in him. I can't stand that he still texts his ex even though its harmless. It kills me that he intended to go to a New Years party with one of his female friends, even though they made those plans long before we got together. I hate that it looks like I care more than he does, even though he's notoriously vault-like when it comes to his true feelings. But, I can honestly say I'd rather take a chance and mangle my heart than give him up and live without him.

1) You are beautiful, meaningful, and worth the struggle. Yes you. The person reading this. I didn't think this was a secret, but not many people seem to know or understand it. Its taken me a long time to understand it myself, but it finally makes sense. You can discredit this as hippie talk or wishful thinking, but to me, it is absolute truth.

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Alive and angry

1. my mom and real dad are divorced yet I like my step dad and family. whats wrong then? my mom will stop at nothing to put BOTH  my dads down, it kills me to watch that.
2. mom, i hate you for smoking pot. you think its funny that you inspire my older sister? to put up with the peer pressure? you think it was funny when she had to go to the hopsital for drinking? guess what? I DIDNT.
3. alot of people say that they have nothing to live for. that is never true, ever. i have lost many important things in my life, yet i NEVER lost happiness completely. and they think that it was all gone, truth is, it was just hiding.
4. there is one boy that i really like. whenever i talk to him, i just like him more, he doesnt make me happier, but he makes me feel special. the fear that he doesnt like me doesnt really scare me, the fact that i know he does makes me feel ALIVE.
5.when people call me a bitch? they dont know what their talking about. when people ask about my sister, who is mentally challanged and compain about how annoying she is? she cant help it, she could go any day. and oh yeah, they dont live with her. my biggest secret? i cant stand when people try to act like they KNOW my life.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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