Never call a woman fat

I slept with my best friend's younger brother this weekend and I feel horrible for what I did to her and because he won't even talk to me now.

I have a problem with having sex with people I don't even/really know. I think that if I sleep with someone, they will like me. I know better, but I fall into bad habits and start self destructing.

I have slept with 18 guys since I was 17 and am now almost 22. Most of these guys were one night stands. I'm not proud of this. I hate myself for what I do to myself and how I always feel afterward.

I have a daughter with a man I was with for 3 years. I love her to death, but sometimes I feel like I just can't handle her. I should have waited to become a mother.

I have ocd and body dismorphia. I was anorexic/bulimic when I was younger because I never saw myself as thin even though I weighed 96lbs at 5'6". I blame my dad because when I was 12 he told me to stop eating so much because my butt was getting big. People tell me my butt is one of my best features.