No, but what is happiness if it's based on a lie?

I want my best friend's girlfriend to be with me because i would actually treat her with respect and i am not a scumbag like he is. I wish he would change, it makes me hurt inside because i will always defend him if someone else says that about him.

I always try to show off my strength but often hurt myself, i need attention.

I really love to masturbate and do it way too often.

I am the most fake but honest and caring person. I have to make up lies to make everyone happy. Does it make me a bad person?

I don't want to grow up which hurts my life because i avoid change and growth.