Your life isn't over yet

1.  I want to start my whole life over. I pray a lot that God would grant me that one wish
2.  When I was 14 I would fantasize about my twin sister dying and all the attention I would receive from that. She died later that same year. Now I wish she was alive. I miss her every day.
3. I am disappointed in myself for not achieving all that I could in life. I lie to people about my accomplishments.
4. I have suspected for years that I have an STD, but am too embarrassed to get checked.
5. I hate my boyfriend's family. I wish he did too, so we could leave this fucking town. I dread being here for the rest of my life.