Looking for a way out

1. I'm married and I think about killing myself...a lot. I wish I had the courage to do it. the only thing that stops me are my 3 kids.
2. I'm trying to change my life for the better. but, I have an 18 year old trying to screw it up. I WOULD LOVE TO BEAT HER ASS.
3. I'm scared of being alone, my kids are all I have in this world.
4. I think I suffer from mild depression...it's getting worse.
5. I would love to leave and never come back here. I wanna get away from everyone that's trying to hurt me...I'm tired of life.