Hoping for failure

1. I listen to my friends' problems and try to help them, but I really could care less.

2. I am still suicidal, but no one will ever know.

3. I hope my boyfriend doesn't pass his class so that he won't get deployed more often.  I tell him that I am 100% behind him on what he wants to do and give him words of encouragement, but am terrified that if he gets in, then he will be killed just like my friend.

4. I am bulimic, but still fat and I wish this would just change.

5. I love the idea of rough sex.  I want to be dominated and abused.