Freedom of speech isn't all it's cracked up to be

One of the people I trust the most shattered my heart today. It's not the first time he's done so and I really should've seen it coming, but that doesn't make it hurt any less.

I wish I could freely tell people how I feel about things instead of hiding behind a facade, it's becoming ridiculous and I'm losing people through it.

I'm fighting against killing myself because I love too many people, I would hate myself for putting them through that agony, but then again.. I wouldn't be around to see it.

I'm scared of falling in love, marrying someone, for them to fall in love for someone else. I know it's a possibility, it's happened to my mom twice. I'm so terrified I think I run from the people who are better suited for me.

I really want to die.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: bisexual


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