Emphasis on the hate

1. I'm 18, and I've been in love with this guy since I was 15, we've been off and on this whole time...everyone says I'm too young to have found true love, but everytime I've been with someone else or thought I was in love I always went back to him...we've been through a lot together and last December I royally f***ed up and he recently started talking to me...he says he loves me and wants to be with me again, but I feel like it doesn't show (this is the short version of "us")...recently I saw something on facebook that's telling me he has another girlfriend and has been playing me this whole time...I've never cried so hard in my life, especially over something I don't really know.

2. I HATE HATE HATE my brother's girlfriend. I have NEVER hated anyone, I never even came close to hating anyone, but I HATE her (emphasis on the "HATE") She has the most irritating voice known to man, she's uglier than sin, she bitches and complains about everything, and is lazy as hell...now she goes to the same school as me, and follows me around like a lost puppy and all my friends stopped hanging out with me because they don't like her. She's starting to wear my clothes and accessories, and she's the world's biggest hypochondriac. She is literally around me 24/7/365...from the time I wake up until AFTER I go to bed...I'm pretty sure God and the D.A. would forgive me for killing her...

3. I feel really ugly and fat because I go to school with the prettiest and thinnest people (minus my brother's girlfriend) and it kills my self esteem, but everyone says I'm pretty...I wish I could believe them.

4. My dog is my world. It's pathetic how much I love him. I literally sit there and just cry when I pet him because I think about what'll happen when he dies and I'm still around...I don't know what I'm going to do.

5. It's not much of a secret, but I LOVE this website. It's amazing. I've posted a few times before...it is such a great therapy for me, and I'm sure other people...and "K" you're beyond amazing, you're such a great person for letting others vent and tell their secrets...and you always give the best advice, and alothough it wasn't directed to me, you've actually helped me through some rough times too.


Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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