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Monday, February 14, 2011

Free by Independence Day

ONE: I think about breaking up, with my boyfriend of two years, everyday. I just don't know how to do it. We both live together and share the lease- I don't want to risk my credit being damaged at such a young age. Also, he's very emotional and cries when we get into arguments- or even when he argues with his parents he ends up calling me- crying over the phone.

TWO: My boyfriend and I lost our virginities to each other. I was 19 and he was 23. He has NEVER been close to making me come. I'm not sexually experienced or anything, but I know that sex is supposed to be a mutual thing. I feel like a doll he uses when he wants sex.

THREE: I have no idea what i'm doing with my life. I'm in school, but I have no idea what for. Sometimes I wish I could just meet a rich guy and not have to worry about money anymore. My boyfriend has been gambling a lot and just lost $9,000 maybe more, but he's not telling me.

FOUR: I've cheated on my boyfriend 6 months into the relationship- well not really cheated, I just kissed another guy. My boyfriend found out and all hell broke loose. He cried for six hours straight. When he asked if I wanted to work it out, I really didn't want to. I felt bad that I caused him all this pain- so that night I gave him my virginity. I regret it so much. If I had the chance to do it again, I would break up with him their and then. I wish I could of saved myself for somebody else- someone I truly loved.

FIVE: I know I'm the love of his life, but he isn't mine. My father gave me a way out- when my lease with my boyfriend expires in July he's going to get me a condo to share with my sister. I haven't told my boyfriend yet, and I'm not sure how to tell him, but I want to take a break, and meet new people, and do new things. I'm not even 21 and I feel shackled to him- an old married woman. I want to be able to talk to whoever I want without worrying if my boyfriend will find out and become jealous.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight


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