Forever is a long time

1) I masturbate too much
2) All I can think about is my first, and ex, girlfriend and how I was the first to ever pleasure her (I only fingered her wish we could have done more)
3) I also can't stop thinking about how I should have tried to get a blow job before we split. she was willing but I don't  know why I didn't let her that night on the sofa. oh well I'll regret that forever lol
4) I miss her so bad I would do any thing to get her back, even tough she flirted a lot she has been the only girl i have ever felt this way about
5) And I'm only in the 11th grade it feels good to get all that off my chest