Other fish in the sea

I am afraid to live life without my son's mother. She completes me.

When we have sex the foreplay is awesome but I always come extremely fast

I cheated on her morally but not technically because we were not together but it still was wrong and I got the other woman pregnant with twins.

I recently found out she slept with another man also. It happened to be a former friend she slept with in the past and i'm afraid she is in love with him

I have thought about suicide every day this week*