Truth behind the smile

1. I think sometimes I would wish I was dead if I wasn't so scared of what happened after I die.
2. People think I'm so happy all the time, but really I just smile out of habit.
3. I have no idea what I want to do with my life.
4. My best friend has pretended I don't exist for five months because I loved him too much while we were dating.
5. Sometimes the only time I'm happy is when I distract myself with clothes, doing my hair, or gossiping.