A conflicted man

I am the healthiest person i know.  I am 340 pounds and my doctor calls me a healthy fat man.

I always say i am a family man, but i realized it's much better to just have sex with them instead of try to have a relationship. I feel horrible.

I try to catch my friend having sex and fantasize it's with me. I've know him since middle school and i am also a man.

I try to hurt girls when i am having sex with them. I am endowed and use it. Makes it easier to get off.

My friend is facing jail and i feel it's my fault. I hope he gets raped in jail like he did to those women.