Mom always said to spit

1) I know that if he doesn't start paying more attention to me, I could possibly cheat on him and feel he deserved it.
2) sometimes when I masturbate I picture I'm with a woman
3) I gave my boyfriend head with my mother in the next room and I swallowed.
4) a part of me still thinks he wants his ex
5) I have never forgiven him for the first time he broke my heart