Where's a fairy princess when you need one?

I want to love a woman so badly. But can't because I'm a fag.
All I want is to be the hottest shit in the room.
I dislike my boyfriend so much, a lot of the time. And I know things are going to end up badly because when we fight, it's soo bad. But I can't let him leave my life. And he can't let me leave his. We're stuck to each other.
I can be pissed at anything if I want to. Especially during weed withdrawal. I'll kill.
I don't want to do anything at all. Really. I don't want to work. Or worry about pleasing people. I just literally don't want to do anything.