Gotta do it for you

1 I'm engaged to guy I've been with for almost a month I really do love him even though its so soon I kno... its crazy...
2 even tho I love and want my fiance I'm still madly in love with my first love and he loves me back but I don't kno what to do...
3 I want a baby more then anything and so does my fiance but I want to wait till I finish college but he wants one now
4 I'm so scared I'm going to make the wrong choice on who to be with and have a horrible life
5 I've made horrible mistakes in my life and I'm trying to be a better person for my fiance but its so hard....