Struggling with self harm

I pick my nose and eat it all the time.   I mAke it bleed.  I have a bloody nose right now.

I bite my fingernails so much they won't grow.  I eat the dead skin around them.  I make them bleed too.

I like to rip my hair out.   My eyebrows are mostly gone and i have to color them in.  I especially like to rip out Ass hairs.

I am a girl and i have to shave most of my body since i am hairy like a man.

I wish i really was a man so i could be Fuck teenage girls and come on their faces.  i would use them only for that.

[Admin here -- I wish I could give you a hug. There have been other posters on this site who self-harm via trichotillomania and still more who suffer with excessive hair. You do not have to continue to harm yourself and you definitely don't deserve it. I tried to find you some links that might help, and if it's an option for you, there are therapists that can help you learn to cope without self-harm and doctors that can treat you for the hirsutism. The world can be a much better place than the one you are in, but you have to take the first steps to get there. Bear in mind that I'm not a therapist, I'm just a chick -- but my heart hurts for you. It doesn't have to be this way -- you can help yourself even if professional help isn't an option. Much love. -- Kelly]

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