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Tuesday, August 17, 2010

The letter she forgot to send


(<3)I saw my ex-fuck buddy today. When our cars past each other and he turned and looked at me, my heart sank. He'll never know how much he meant/means to me. He didn't even give me a chance, but what hurts the worst is that the sex wasn't just sex. It was the most intense thing I have ever experienced in my life. Fucking is fucking, but this was passion to the tenth power. 
(<3)I can't wait until the day I can stare into his blue eyes again. 
(<3)Posting my secrets takes more courage than I imagined. 
(<3)I wish my younger sister would make better decisions. She is so reckless and it scares me to death. She'll never know how much I really love her.
(<3)I'm glad you did what you did. Now I have an excuse not to be with you. I never really wanted to be with you anyways. I could never love you the way I think I could have loved guy in secret one. I know you could have given me everything, but how could I not give you my love in return? That's why I push you away all the time. You definitely deserve a girl who is worthy of your love, and I feel like it will never be me. I know I have lost something great, but I just can't give my heart to you. I'm sorry. Sorry because I know that's all you ever wanted. I wish I could at least tell you this, but I'm too much of a coward. It will always be, my secret.

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1 comment:

  1. you should tell the ex this, it just might free his soul as well as yours, words are meant to be shared

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