Where's Dr House when you need him?

1. I've never been happier than I am in my life at this very moment.

2. My boyfriend & I have never been happier. He makes me happier than anyone else in the world. We've worked through all of the problems we'd had over the past few months, and I really am prepared to spend the rest of my life with him. We've been together for two & a half years, and I love him more than ever.

3. Although I've never been happier than I am right now, I'm really sick. I'm having a lot of health problems that the doctors can't figure out. They can't figure out what I have, and they can't make me better. I'm afraid I could die. They've told me that I could die. That frightens me more than anyone would know, but I try not to show it because my boyfriend, family & best friends are all worried about me too. 

4. I'm excited to go back to school this semester, but I don't know if I'm going to be able to. I'm supposed to start school on the 31st, but I'm sick and my doctors think I'm contagious, so I obviously can't go back to college if I'm sick.

5. I hate the fact that I can't work right now. I have two jobs, and they're waiting for me to get better, but I hate the fact that I can't be working right now. I hate sitting around the house, but that's all I can do. Hopefully I'll get better soon, but I honestly don't know.

Bonus - My boyfriend is leaving for the Navy sometime between November & March, and although I know it's a good thing for him & it will be good for the two of us in the long run, I'm so terribly afraid that I'm going to fall apart without him, or that I won't be here when he gets back because the doctors won't be able to figure out what's wrong with me in time to save me. Honestly, I'm really scared):

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