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Tuesday, November 2, 2010

At least they can't foreclose on student loans

1. I am in love with an alcoholic. It hurts so muuch to watch what he is doing to himself - and some of the things he does/says to me. But I'm afraid of leaving him, because he means so much to me. And I'm worried what would happen to him if I stopped caring - because no one else wants to help him.

2. Its hard to watch and deal with the decisions my friends make oftentimes. But, I've come to realize they are making the same choices I have - maybe if I were strong enough to do the right things, they could to. I wish they would realize they deserve better.

3. I feel like I'm being swallowed alive by my money problems - aka school debt and a lack of serious income. I wish I could stop worrying so much about it, because it doesn't make it any different.

4. My favorite place to be is a dark little hole in the wall bar. Sometimes I wish I didn't know everyone there - because they know all of my dark secrets. I trust some of these people more than my other friends & I never see them outside of the bar.

5. I think a lot of my issues with relationships,men, and life generally stem from being taken advantage of when I was younger. I wanted to be with him, but he was five years older than me & knew what he was doing. I'm not so sure that I knew what I was doing. I should probably find a way to deal with this past indescrition - maybe then things could get easier.


Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight




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