Baby steps are still steps

* My boyfriend get a thrill out of hurting me. He doesn't get mad and abuse me but he hurts me all the time. Examples: He pushed me off the bed one day and I got a piece of glass stuck in my foot. He is constantly pinching me and putting bruises on me. I don't know if he really enjoys this or what the deal is.
* I want out so bad. I am tired of the constant aggrivation of him wanting me up his ass 24/7. I can't have friends. My family is almost forgotten about me cause I never go around. It's like he wants me to isolate myself from friends and family and that's not healthy for me.
* My friends all talk about how much they miss me yet I can't explain why I am not spending time with them. I know I don't need this guy but it's so hard to let go.
* I miss my life. This man has taken so much from me. I don't even know how to get started again. I just have to take baby steps and get it done.
* My self esteem is pretty much nonexistant since I have been with him. It's slowly deminished. Yet somehow when he thinks I am fixing to leave he knows all the right words to draw me back in. I gotta stop falling for his bullshit every time. My life would be so much better if I just get away. But how? I don't want to be hurt.

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: n/a



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