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1) when I was in 7th grade the Guy that I was totally in love with became my best friend though it soon turned into me giving him pics of "everything" and him raping me in a movie. I am still In love with him but I haven't had any type of contact with him in almost 7 months
2)I have attempted suicide at least 5 times, it didn't work. I can't go a day without thinking about killing myself. no one knows.
3) I hate myself so much that I can't stand it, I don't deserve to live here, i just screw up this place more and more
4) I've been cutting myself since I was 12. I can't stop. I've tried.
5) no one should care about me, and if they claim to I never can believe them.