everyone thinks that I'm over it but I don't know how to tell them that everything is actually getting harder for me.
I find myself wishing more and more that I was dead.
I've turned to sex to get any amount of satisfaction out of life but even that doesn't work anymore.
I just want to die.
Gender: male
Sexual Orientation: straight
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Wow, it amazes me how this post is basically the story of my life...I'm a female though, but in the end the problem's the same.
ReplyDeleteMy best friend who I was in love with for 4 years committed suicide 2 years ago. I've been a cutter for 6 years, and that didn't get more frequent. But I did start attempting suicide and planning what my next suicide attempt would be all the time. Everyone thinks I do it for attention. I also resorted to sleeping around all of the time as a means to feel something, ANYTHING...I've tried to stop, but I always go back to it. I gave up on true love when my best friend died. I can't imagine anything good in life if such a beautiful person like my best friend would take his own life. So whoever posted this, I understand what you're saying completely, and may your love rest in peace.